February 2012
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I always cause my headaches. I get so wrapped up in my head with these philosophical thought. I think too much, worry too much, and stress myself out. I need to just breathe.
Anonymous asked: That quote about girls could probably define about 1/2 my life. In other news, you are still flipping gorgeous.
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there are days when i miss you. and today has been one of them. i do stupid things like search for your face in a crowd. i search for your face in every driver on the road that passes me. it is stupid and perhaps childish of me, i know. but forgive me, love, i don’t know how to stop.
“I have wanted to kill myself a hundred times, but somehow I am still in love...”
– Voltaire (via jesscissell)
“I was half in love with her by the time we sat down. That’s the thing about...”
– J.D. Salinger, The Catcher in the Rye (via areyoutheregoditsmeella)\
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my fingers picked you carefully, from a bouquet of many other men with gentle smiles and irresistible collar bones. picked you, and set you apart from the rest of the men with unappealing traits.
plucked your petals apart, one by one.
undressed you and left you bare under the spotlight.
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to put it into simple words: I am just trying to survive.
working 26-30 hours a week.
attending school four days a week.
commuting between two sites.
five classes.
five midterms: three this coming week, two the next.
community service two days a week.
and still somehow trying to have some kind of social life.
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Anytime I write something new in my notebook it makes my heart do cartwheels backwards on repeat.
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I.
we wash away the filth
throw away what is broken
and buy comfort.
we call it living.
II.
after the rape i found myself laying in my tub
with the hot water running, mountains of foam
mounted on my body.
i tried to cleanse the bleeding,
rub away the dirty finger marks from his hands on my body
regaining my pureness,
telling myself i am not dirty.
III.
i left you
like old shoes...
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Wake up, get dressed, eat, smoke, have a honey whiskey.
It’s always better in the morning.
Remember to pretend it never happened.
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you remind me of summer evenings
laying on the grass, kissing your cheeks.
sharing secrets, wrestling, and making bracelets
out of hand picked flowers.
one for you and one for me.
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Whenever I wake up to cute and meaningful messages from people I love and and care about, it already feels like my day is complete, even if it’s just the beginning. Nothing in the world compares to the feeling of having someone care for you and show that they do.
Anonymous asked: Sorry, didn't see that last message until now.
Anonymous asked: Your niece is adorable, and you will be a wonderful mother when the time comes around.
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At a moment our lives crossed and quickly detached before neither of us could grasp the heat of the moment. It’s years later now, and it almost feels as if we are now and will forever be a huge paradox. Our lives have been so different and continue to be, that it makes it hard to wrap my head around the idea of us ever being so close again. You have finished detaching yourself from the young...
Anonymous asked: This isn't meant to be a negative comment or an indictment of you in any way, it's just an honest question...if you're sick of drinking and sick of being broke, wouldn't quitting drinking help both of those problems?
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It always gives me a bittersweet feeling to read over something I wrote. It always leaves me thinking
A) I was so stupid, what was i thinking.
B) I can’t believe I wrote that.
C) I am glad at least one person found it intriguing.
Most of the time it’s a combination of all three plus: I need to stop writing this bullshit.
Sigh.
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the snow covered just about every corner of the city this morning.
and i thought of coffee and fire. i know, it’s such a weird thought but it was the first thing that came to mind. i thought about what i would do to enjoy one more cup of coffee with you like we used to. i thought about the bonfire by the beach on winter days with nothing but a blanket, a cup of coffee, and your guitar. you...
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i suppose i loved you
during the late night phone calls
when the silence turned to static.
the humming of your snore on
the other side of the phone
sang to me a lullaby.
and i remember
days when i picked fights with men
i let too close, too soon
and held on too tightly to.
crying because i knew i once again had been just a fuck
but you didn’t say you saw it coming
instead you...
Love is a continual interrogation. I don't know of...
“The systemic corruption of our government starts with money - essentially bribes...”
– Rocky Anderson (via rockyanderson2012)
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leaveyouapen asked: hey, just wanted to wish you a happy Valentine's Day and you know hope you get a lot of love, not just for today or anything like that, but everyday <3 =)
Anonymous asked: Hope you have a wonderful Valentine's Day, regardless of the circumstances of it or what not. Love you. <3
I Can Be Alone For Valentine's
leaveyouapen:
I’ve been without you most of my nights,
mornings the same. My Mondays, alone.
Tuesday’s no exception, There is not
expectation.
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Stop going around in circles and just tell me...
For once in your life, just say what you really want to say.
you and me by penny & the quarters.
Anonymous asked: Don't feel bad about not having a significant other. You're gorgeous and creative and probably could if you wanted to, but being choosy is a good thing, since it's kind of an important topic. Hope you have a good week.