April 2010
unrequited.
I wish i could have known then, just how dangerous you are.
In all honesty; right now i don’t really feel anything for anyone. I did at some point, perhaps i’m lying. Maybe i do a little bit. But day after day its fading more and more. I’m not angry about it, i think its best things happened this way, because apparently things wouldn’t have worked out. We’re too...
March 2010
my space strangers
cle-men-tey : ):
: u should watch a kool movie with me at the theatre
one day
u wanna?
……………………………………………………………………11: 13 PMDenizee:
maybe, i dont usually hang around with strangers
……………………………………………………………………11: 13 PMcle-men-tey :):
oh
well im a nice guy
……………………………………………………………………11: 15 PMDenizee:
thats what all cyber stalkers say
……………………………………………………………………11: 15 PMcle-men-tey :):
lolol
……………………………………………………………………11: 16 PMDenizee:
yeah and then the story is all over the news. GIRL KILLED AFTER MEETING A MYSPACE FRIEND.
lol
lets spit condom wrappers.
for all the times you say i love you; and i stay silent.
it’s funny how some people don’t believe i haven’t fallen in love. people in love are crazy. i’m perfectly sane, thank you very much. when i find love i’ll be sure to let everyone else know.
old posts.
I posted these on psc a while back. I’m reposting this here now, because it still remains true.
Feb 2, 2010
Sometimes it’s best if we leave when we’re ready, and I think it doesn’t matter how much you know you should leave, sometimes we never leave until we’re actually ready.
My dear friend jess, shared this with me today through one of our conversation via email....
unfullfilled
i wish i was nonexistent. nothing is enough to make me feel as alive as i wish i was. i’m still laughing at myself for being so stupid. silly girl. i don’t learn do i? i suppose not. you’re distant. i want someone close, someone to make make me feel that rush, that adrenaline i haven’t felt in a while. you could have been everything, but i suppose i just wasn’t...
what am i to you?
Denizee. Neni. nothing else. My world spins to fast to stay fixated on one thing. I cannot say I’ve ever been in love; but if i have i’d tell you all about him. Some days i wake up on the wrong side of the bed; throw massive bitch fits and wish i could just sleep forever. There are days in which i get into situations in which i may lose control of. I nag, and fuss about people and...
“I disappear into the person I love. I am the permeable membrane. if I love you,...”
– Elizabeth Gilbert- Eat, Pray, Love
“‘Cause I’ve been in love before
And I’ve found that love is...”
love memoirs.
thought perhaps maybe we could talk. talk about us.
lets not get it twisted i’m not yours, and never were.
i’m not here to say i want you all though that’s true.
i’m here to tell you love doesn’t live in me anymore.
you took the best of me whith that stare of yours.
no love doesn’t live in my soul.
i’m not here to tell you i need you, although...
I know I don’t know you, But I want you so...
sheets.
i miss eloquence. i used to be able to sit down and just write; my entire heart out. it seems as though something is incomplete. i now sit with a pen in hand and stare at an empty paper. i’m at loss for words. no fine prints. i miss the rush i used to get when i completed something. at the moment i was writing i would just scribble thought per thought. i’d do it without thinking, and...
i won’t speak about it again.
Say when, And my own two hands will comfort you...
meditate
i love to take very long bubble baths. play calming music loud while i burn scented candles. it’s been a while since I’ve taken time off just for myself. it’s been a while since i’m actually alone; that i take long deep breaths and just enjoy some peaceful time, no drama, no people, nothing. i miss doing this, and after yesterdays events i think i’m going to do this...
"People always think that the most painful thing...
missboondocks:
estaniquelove:
(via boohoocindy)
secret.
I want to give in my own happiness and trade if off for someone else’s sorrow. i hate to see the people i love and care about hurt. I despise even more the incapacity to make them feel better. i feel like i have this responsiblity to ensure everyones joy. i’m not God, i know i cannot have everyones problems on my shoulders. but some days i really would not mind sacrificing myself...
Take a glorious bite out of the whole world
too many deaths today.
too many, its so damn upsetting.
fixated
I just get so fixated on watching you. It’s quite entertaining. I simply don’t have words to describe how utterly amazing you are. Indescribable. You manage to bring out the best and worst in me, without knowledge of even doing so.. Where did it go wrong? I lose myself, you are unrequited.
I’m so focused on watching you drag along that i forget i promised to move on. You keep me...
restless.
My body aches, i feel exhausted.
Much so, that my stomach has been aching almost all day.
I can’t stand eating, anything i intake i end up vomiting
I’m so hungry, but food has made me nauseous all day.
My back has been aching for almost a week now.
Lifting heavy things.
Hope this ends soon.
I have to be up early for work.
I’m just glad i have my afternoon frr to myself...
Oh hey do you know that I can dance Could we talk...
spring break.
I’m officially on spring break as of now.
Unfortunately, i’m going to be working all spring break.
I will try and make as much time as possible.
Which means i’m down to hang after, before work and all day on my two days off.
I just need time for myself and time to enjoy my bed.
Possible things to do: I want to go to the beach. Thats the only thing i really want.
Hope it...
bayside<3
Frames
Some days i just miss the presence.
I miss waking up, having something to look forward to.
I miss the butterflies in my stomach.
I miss having someone to comfort and to comfort me when i cry.
On the rainy days i just want to lay with them, just lay, and talk about simple and honest things.
I miss having someones hand to hold when i’m afraid.
I miss them laughing at me, or just...
you do no wrong, in my eyes.
explosions.
midnights i spend them tossing in my bed.
thinking, wondering, wishing.
thats all i can ever do.
summer is almost near again, i hear it coming.
i see it slowly and surely, as i stand staring out the window.
i see the writing on the canal and i cannot help but smile.
the moon looks full tonight
i wonder if you remember that last argument we had.
i pull out the notebook.
the secrets.
...
I loved you grey sweat pants, no makeup, so...
x.
there are so many people who can always spit out the word love like a disease.
truth:the only reason as to why i haven’t deleted my myspace is because it’s the only bridge of communication between you and i. If i delete it i’m cutting all ties with the only person that knows me, bit by bit. Even if he hardly ever logs on anymore.
i miss the best friend you used to be.
“Like a true Nature’s child, we were born, born to be wild.”
– Steppenwolf
So tell me when you hear my heart stop