July 2010
June 2010
“I’m still mourning over ghosts that broke my heart before I met you.”
– Laura marling
egoista desitjar
Most of my closest and most raw relationships are with those I have never met. I don’t have to pretend what I so much try and hide with people in my daily life. Last night, I swore I would never mention what occured. I swore to myself i was done, and what was left of me is no more. I am alone. I don’t care about anyone but myself. This is it.Selfishly desiring to not give a fuck...
nada é bo o suficiente
There have been to many things I’ve left unsaid. I’m guilty this way, I admit to my faults. I’ve had it right in front of me and I let it walk away. Being who I am it shouldn’t come to you as a a surprise for me to admit to my mistakes. I realized I am not as strong as I could be right now. I’m simply passing by, letting the ridges tear more and more. I’m being...
sunsets
theres something about a sunset that makes me incredibly mushy inside. i took this shot while driving to city of industry down in LA yesterday. its a bad freeway shot with my phone, but i want to keep it. sunsets make me feel free and invincible, most of the time. i get the same feeling i receive from being at the beach. sometimes though sunsets can make me feel sad and weary. sometimes they...
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This morning i sat with all ears wide opened listening to a tale of heartbreak. Twenty two years old, she was poor and he was rich. He was the company’s president, she was the new secretary. Thats how they met. They fell in love. Just a day before the wedding she told him she couldn’t marry him. No one understood why, no one. He packed his belongings and his family said their goodbyes...
axis
What is love?
Its a simple question with a complex answer. You see, i can answer this with a variety of responses. For there is not right or wrong in love. All i have is this: Love can be a tricky thing, painful and yet, beautiful all the same. It will drive you up the wall and make you do crazy shit like settling with someone who has no common interests as you; yet, you’re tied and...
miss-boondocks:
-sarcasticbitch:
Not every girl wants to be in a relationship. Some just want good company, a fella to vibe with, converse with, & laugh with. Not in a rush. Start off simple, and let the rest find itself. Having someone to talk to and feeling comfortable around them is quite beautiful, and a good feeling. Minds connecting, Both on the same page, No bullshit, having someone...
For a moment I sat here with my art supplies in hands reading old letters, listening to old song. I drew, painted and painted. I put the brush down, stared at it and cried. The art served as a reminder of who I used to be before I lost myself.
Coward
Throughout my life I’ve written things with little intention of letting them out in the open. I guard a handbag in a messy closet filled with binders and notebooks that have written all in the words I’ve repressed and set on paper only for my eyes to read over. The truth is these words are a result of pain and experiences. They’re much like secrets you don’t tell anyone for...
rebound
Rebound: that’s the word for it, but sometimes you pick someone for your rebound that is a little too compatible, and then you are stuck. Your ‘fling’ turns into a full-blown relationship, and you are in love, all over again, except with all the baggage of not quite being over the last one, and not quite being ready for this new one, and hey, weren’t you supposed to spend...
drowning in my own sorrow.
I’ve been feeling incredibly alone these past days. I’m surrounded by a sea of faces daily; I can smile, laugh and be fine for a while. Even when deep down all I want to do is drown on my own self pity and just cry. I have two people that I can truly call friends. I feel as if everyone I grew up with just grew apart from me. It’s not something I am proud of; I mean yeah it comes with change and...
Like promised, here’s the list of songs that I have been playing a lot lately. Note: different styles and genres, but still noteworthy.
1. You lost me by Christina Aguilera.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hkwlyDwDc4s&feature=related
2. Reloaded by Lady Gaga ft. Rodney Jerkins
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mV6-sj3Lxyw
3. Know why by Kid...
S.
I was thinking of doing the thirty days of letters thing, but I don’t wanna follow rules. I write to who ever I want to. The subjects name will not be included. So here is the first one:
Dear______ Remember that day I came to you crying? You asked me what was wrong and with the most gentle tone you assured me it was going to be okay. You held me like a mother holds her new born.I think I soaked...
"I don't know what the hell I'm doing, but it's...
thedepartmentofmysteries:
— Mr. Duran
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Tuesday nights
I haven’t necessarily felt like myself. I’m trying to regather the pieces left behind.Trying to break from who i was becoming, making new plans, breaking promises and becoming detached from the external world. Somewhere along the lines of “Rivers belong where they can ramble, Eagles belong where they can fly” i find myself searching for my piece of sky. Searching for...
“You bring me hope when I can’t breathe
You give me love, you’re all...”
